Mahinda’s Little World

I feel strangely lackadaisical these days. It’s the MUGSS show this week, and my birthday at the end of next week — going by tradition, that should mean a fortnight spent either sozzled or hung over, and generally having much fun.

This time around, I can’t seem to summon up any excitement at all. This distresses me. I was going to plan a meal out with some friends for the birthday itself…but have decided I’ll just keep it as simple as possible.

Drinks. In a pub. On a Friday night. And I’ll take it from there, I s’pose.

I still feel pretty Eeyore-ish about it all, though.

Maybe…

…work’s taken it out of me — I’ve had a really tough time of things these last two months, and I know from experience what mental fatigue can be like.

…it’s the distinct lack of sunshine — today’s gloriously clear, and I really enjoyed having a short walk this lunchtime with the sun on my back.

…it’s because I’m missing out on things — I’m really not involved with MUGSS at all this year*, and I’m also missing out on a big joint 30th birthday celebration** in New York.

…it’s the lack of sporting activity — having said that, I’ve not really been enjoying hockey of late, possibly because we’ve just been on such a rubbish losing run.

…it’s the eternal singledom — but even if I wasn’t, I just don’t think I have time for dating right now. Or the woman (women?) for it, but that’s quite another matter

* As documented already, I’m sure, this is the first time I’ve been so little involved for bloody ages. Thinking about it, the last time I felt so out of it all was when MUGSS did Iolanthe, way back in 1997.

** Michael and Josephine are turning 30, and Claire’s sort of in on the act as well. I should have gone there to celebrate my 29th with some of my nearest and dearest friends. Well, maybe not "nearest".

Whatever it is, I don’t like it. Work is letting up, slowly, and the days are getting longer. Perhaps, if I ignore them, my problems will just go away…maybe…